This is an uncharacteristically personal post for me and one I wasn’t sure about writing, but I think in Blogland and on Instagram it’s easy to project this image of ‘bouncing back’ physically after having a baby. But for me, the reality is that adjusting to this new body after baby number two has been hard.
I came out of pregnancy number one relatively unscathed – sure, after breastfeeding for eight months, my boobs looked a bit deflated and everything was a bit softer and saggier, but overall I was very pleasantly surprised (much like Nicky). So I think I went into pregnancy number two with high expectations, thinking everything would be the same.
In the days after Thomas was born, amidst the rest of the hormonal craziness, I started to wonder when my tummy would go down, but after two weeks, I had to resign myself to the fact that a soft, squidgy belly and extra love handles were as good as it was going to get for a while. And truthfully, it bothers me – every time I look in the mirror, I feel a bit disappointed. I know it shouldn’t bother me, and deep down I feel a bit silly going on about my belly when I’ve just grown and given birth to a baby – I should feel like Wonderwoman! I also keep trying to remind myself that Thomas is only nine weeks old (and I absolutely subscribe to the idea of ‘nine months on, nine months off’). Right now, though, nine months feels like a really long time to wait.
The thing is, it’s hard enough to get dressed when you have huge boobs that need to be accessible at all times, but add a sizeable pot belly into the equation and it feels impossible. I like to look nice and, for me, it’s especially important right now as a way of reclaiming a bit of my identity in the midst of a new baby taking over my life. I am slowly figuring out what to wear and what’s most flattering – and, as I say all the time, a bit of lipstick works wonders, too!
As I mentioned the other week, I‘m trying to make exercise a priority (we love exercise on Everyday30), not only to lose weight, but also because it makes me feel good and I want to feel fit and strong rather than worrying about a baby belly. Of course, I’m also trying to be somewhat restrained with my eating, but it’s so damn difficult – after a whole day trying to soothe a crying baby, I can stress-eat a tub of ice cream in no time!
How did you feel post-baby? Did you find it difficult to find flattering clothes? Did you even care about how you looked? I’d love to know.